The year was 2000, and a brand-new show called “Big Brother” was starting. The show put a group of strangers in a house with cameras and the viewers could watch their every move. I’m not sure why I decided as a child that I was going to start writing a weekly review on Big Brother, but I did. I didn’t remember until years later when I started writing my blog that this is something that has interested me from a young age I just didn’t know what it was called.
I’ve recently become obsessed with binge-watching history-based shows on Netflix such as The Tudors, The Last Kingdom, and am currently watching Knightfall. One of the things that these shows all have in common is that they are all loosely based on historical events. In school, history was my favorite subject. I’ve always been an avid reader, and there’s something so fascinating to me to see how far we’ve come (or not come) from the past.
When I was a little girl, my mom bought a workout video and I’m not sure how I started doing it, but I would change my clothes, roll out my mat, and exercise with the video until I had it memorized. I also remember buying a yoga video and doing the same thing. I now realize that I prefer exercising in the format of a class as opposed to going to the gym.
I share all these memories because it became apparent to me that along the way I’ve somehow forgotten who I am. As we get older and life gets busier, we lose our childlike innocence and discover new things about ourselves, new lessons to learn. But I would argue that we shouldn’t forget the things that gave us a spark as a kid.
We’re all wired to be interested and gifted in different areas and as we age the negative voices often cause us to lose sight of this. I love the idea that I was blogging before blogging might have even been a thing. I can only say that fear stopped me from pursuing this seriously for almost 20 years. The gifts that we’ve all been given will find a way to come out regardless. It’s up to us to hone in on these gifts and find that feeling again.
Now that I’ve remembered these facts about myself, I’m eager to see what other interests I’ve had since a child that are still manifesting themselves now that I’m adult. Here are some ways in which you can find the child in you again:
- Look at old photographs: Most of us were captured at some point or another doing things that we loved. Ask your loved ones if they have any old photos of you or videos, and I bet you’ll be amazed at what you find.
- Ask your family: Those closest to us will often remember things about that we might have forgotten. Ask them if they remember what subjects you loved in school or if you always told everyone what you wanted to be when you grew up.
- Try new things: I only watched The Last Kingdom because someone told me that it was amazing, and if I liked The Tudors I would love it. I decided to watch two episodes and they were right. I binge-watched all 3 seasons. By watching this show it not only helped me to learn some history, but also helped me to remember my own history.
I saw a quote once that said “Once upon a time you were a little girl with big dreams that you promised you’d make real one day. Don’t disappoint yourself.” The younger version of yourself is watching. What will you do?